A big howdy to everyone out there! I hope this finds everyone having a pain free day. For this post, I just want to promote the Lyme Disease Challenge. This is a social media movement striving to bring more awareness and understanding to Lyme Disease. Check out www.lymediseasechallenge.org for more details and printables!
Even if you cannot donate to the cause, even just doing the Challenge would be awesome. All donations will go to benefit the International Lyme and Associated Diseases (ILADS). Already, almost $15,000 has been raised. This is a great opportunity for all of us to get involved and spread awareness about this disease. The ladies who organized this have worked long and hard, and now it is time for us to do our part! We have a voice, we have the tools, and now we have the movement! I hope to see your posts…
Well, ladies and gents, it’s been a nightmare of a ride these past 10 days. Ironically, my last post was discussing the sometimes, most times, sporadic onset of symptoms. Then, tada! Totally happened to me. And the worst. I hadn’t been feeling all that great over Easter. I was having tummy issues, nausea, indigestion. And headaches. Really painful headaches. I missed a family member’s birthday celebration along with Easter since I was basically incapacitated.
Then it was Monday. And all hell broke loose. I got up and started getting ready as usual. About 25 minutes into my routine I began getting dizzy, lightheaded, and severely nauseated. Just like that. I laid on the bed for a minute, panting and hoping I wouldn’t throw up. I couldn’t go to work like this. No way, no how. I spent the entire day in bed miserable. I couldn’t eat. My stomach kept cramping and then the migraine made its appearance. Tuesday was yet an instant replay of Monday. No fever, but I could not stay upright. I have never felt this horrible before.
Wednesday I already had an appointment with my LLMD set. My mom had to drive me. I was afraid of a dizzy spell or whatever might show up next. I’d like to say my doc had all the answers. I wanted Doc to tell me that I could do *this and I would be OK. Alas, as it always is with Lyme and Company, not so much. My EBV is reactive and has been since January. I have a mycoplasma pnuemonia infection. I have one MTHFR mutation. I also now may have an hpylori bacterial infection which I am being tested for. My body is on the fritz. Overloaded by fighting on so many fronts at once, I don’t know, maybe my immune system has just given up. I was to stop my antibiotics, and I was directed to bed rest for the next 2 days through the weekend, returning to work Monday. Oiy. I told Doc that this is the worst I have felt since beginning treatment 2 years ago. Definitely scary and disconcerting. The rest of Wednesday was a replay of Monday and Tuesday. I swear, I haven’t slept so much in my life.
So here I am, resting. The nausea let up finally yesterday. I was able to eat a decent meal as well. Headaches are manageable. I feel like at least half a person now. Missing this much work had been distressing though. It worries me and while I want to plan for the future, what do I plan for? Right now, I plan for the Worst Case Scenario: I can’t work. Realizing many of my fellow Lyme sufferers are already in this boat, I am extremely grateful that I can still work and that I can manage these incidents for now.
While I am waiting to get my labwork back, Doc tested me again for EBV, mycoplasma, hpylori, thyroid (I have Hashimoto’s) along with ATP, CD57 and Lyme, I am wracking my brain about what I can change on my side to make things better. I definitely need to detox better and more. I think it is time to make a serious diet change. And most importantly, I need to embrace the fact that I am chronically ill and start working with what I gots. As the Indigo Girls sing, “What makes me think I could start clean slated, the hardest to learn was the least complicated…”
One thing that I think all of us experience as Chronic Lyme patients is the comings and goings of many different symptoms. Oh, yes, there are some symptoms that stay with us loyally, never leaving our sides. But then there are those symptoms that show up off and on like fair weather friends. You know the ones. For me, my Lyme best actors are joint pain, headaches of some degree, and muscle aches. Best supporting actors? Nausea, dizziness, achiness, joint pain in other joints, well, I could go on. For me, the hardest thing about all of these is how they can come and go so quickly. I have tried to find rhyme or reason for this but there really doesn’t seem to be anything that is a consistent trigger, at least for me, other than overdoing in some way (physically and/or emotionally) the day before.
Sometimes, I can go for half a day with just some joint pain and a nagging headache. This isn’t bad at all! Then, BAM. Full blown horrendous flu-like symptoms. I have to get to a place to lay down, shut out the light, try and think about happy moments in my life because my head feels like it is hitting a wall. My stomach cramps up and the nausea is overwhelming. This is what I like to call the main event. It can last for minutes, hours or days. How does one plan for anything with these kinds of things happening seemingly out of thin air?
Like you all, I try to plan ahead. I hope and pray that on the day of a planned out, party, dinner, etc. that I will be feeling “good” and that I can attend. More than many times, I have had to cancel plans. I have even tried resting the day before but again, it doesn’t seem to effect the next day’s outcome at all. It’s upsetting, frustrating and most of all disappointing. Staying at home in bed is not my idea of a good time.
So for an example, my husband and I were out yesterday, picking up some items for our garden beds. Actually, it was nice being out and about, looking at all of the beautiful plants and flowers. I guess we were there about 40 minutes. By the time we left, my head was beginning to play its tune; it was time to go home. Once home, I had what felt like a flu. A strong headache, stomach nausea and indigestion and stomach cramping. I spent the rest of the afternoon in bed, nursing my symptoms as best I could.
Today, I was able to work a bit outside earlier in the morning. Feeling the cool breeze on my face and the sun on my back was pure joy. The dogs kept us company while my husband and I pulled weeds and cleaned up the garden area. My husband, a very sweet man, said, “I’m glad you are out here.” I was glad to be out moving about, too. One day at a time and sometimes, one moment at a time.
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