Well, ladies and gents, it’s been a nightmare of a ride these past 10 days. Ironically, my last post was discussing the sometimes, most times, sporadic onset of symptoms. Then, tada! Totally happened to me. And the worst. I hadn’t been feeling all that great over Easter. I was having tummy issues, nausea, indigestion. And headaches. Really painful headaches. I missed a family member’s birthday celebration along with Easter since I was basically incapacitated.
Then it was Monday. And all hell broke loose. I got up and started getting ready as usual. About 25 minutes into my routine I began getting dizzy, lightheaded, and severely nauseated. Just like that. I laid on the bed for a minute, panting and hoping I wouldn’t throw up. I couldn’t go to work like this. No way, no how. I spent the entire day in bed miserable. I couldn’t eat. My stomach kept cramping and then the migraine made its appearance. Tuesday was yet an instant replay of Monday. No fever, but I could not stay upright. I have never felt this horrible before.
Wednesday I already had an appointment with my LLMD set. My mom had to drive me. I was afraid of a dizzy spell or whatever might show up next. I’d like to say my doc had all the answers. I wanted Doc to tell me that I could do *this and I would be OK. Alas, as it always is with Lyme and Company, not so much. My EBV is reactive and has been since January. I have a mycoplasma pnuemonia infection. I have one MTHFR mutation. I also now may have an hpylori bacterial infection which I am being tested for. My body is on the fritz. Overloaded by fighting on so many fronts at once, I don’t know, maybe my immune system has just given up. I was to stop my antibiotics, and I was directed to bed rest for the next 2 days through the weekend, returning to work Monday. Oiy. I told Doc that this is the worst I have felt since beginning treatment 2 years ago. Definitely scary and disconcerting. The rest of Wednesday was a replay of Monday and Tuesday. I swear, I haven’t slept so much in my life.
So here I am, resting. The nausea let up finally yesterday. I was able to eat a decent meal as well. Headaches are manageable. I feel like at least half a person now. Missing this much work had been distressing though. It worries me and while I want to plan for the future, what do I plan for? Right now, I plan for the Worst Case Scenario: I can’t work. Realizing many of my fellow Lyme sufferers are already in this boat, I am extremely grateful that I can still work and that I can manage these incidents for now.
While I am waiting to get my labwork back, Doc tested me again for EBV, mycoplasma, hpylori, thyroid (I have Hashimoto’s) along with ATP, CD57 and Lyme, I am wracking my brain about what I can change on my side to make things better. I definitely need to detox better and more. I think it is time to make a serious diet change. And most importantly, I need to embrace the fact that I am chronically ill and start working with what I gots. As the Indigo Girls sing, “What makes me think I could start clean slated, the hardest to learn was the least complicated…”
*you know, a pill, a diet, a one stop shop cure
I hope it is a pain free day – B