Fire in the Hole

Fourth
Fourth

Well, I certainly haven’t been diligent with posting. Just a quick update, I’m still having issues with my lower back. Insurance has denied a lumbar MRI. Doctor exploring possible colon issue, possible pinched nerve, and a few other things. The pain is bearable, and I just don’t have the gumption to fight the insurance on it. My kidneys are good and they were my main concern. However, I have had all kinds of other check-ups and doctor visits just to make sure the rest of me isn’t falling apart: eye doc, dentist, general doctor. All of those visits have turned out just right. None of this is an excuse for not posting!

Hopefully, all of you enjoyed the 4th of July weekend. We had plans both Saturday and Sunday, but Lyme played its card, and it was a doozey. One positive is that since I have been having better days, I can really feel the herx when it comes on. I started feeling under the weather on Saturday. I honestly just chalked it up to a busy week; I actually was doing things a “normal” person might do! Running errands, grocery shopping, doctor visits. It was all kind of amazing. I haven’t been up for much of any of that in a really long time. Last summer I had a PICC line so I was somewhat limited in my scope. I also didn’t feel really great most of the 5 weeks I was dosing. Anyway, by Saturday afternoon I was in bed with a headache. My husband had to go to our friends’ party by himself but he was very understanding and that helped me not feel so cruddy.

By Sunday though, all was lost. I woke up about 3 a.m. and felt so nauseous. I managed to slip back to sleep for a few hours but by 6 a.m. I was up. Everything was hurting. Joints, head, tummy. Oiy! I took a hot Epsom salt bath and went back to bed. Yet again, we had to cancel with friends. But I just couldn’t even “suck it up”!  I mean, have you ever felt that kind of nausea where you just do not want to move because it makes it worse? Yes, that was my Sunday in a nutshell. I was literally in bed all day long. And no reading or anything productive. The little a/c window unit on high, the curtains drawn, and the heating pad on full blast was what my day entailed. I finally crawled out of my cave about 7:30 p.m. and ate some corn on the cob.

Today is better. I’m exhausted and my stomach is still making some strange noises but overall, I feel like I am going to make it. I really thought I was doing a decent job on detoxing but maybe not so much. I am just so grateful that it is summertime, and I can manage this disease a lot easier and without inconveniencing a bunch of people. Of course, I am sorry to have missed all of the fun with our friends. Trying not to beat myself up about letting people down is a real struggle for me, as I am sure it is for all chronic disease warriors.

Again, I hope this was weekend you were able to make some great memories, – B

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