It was 80 degrees here yesterday, a/c on, hair frizzies and such abounded. Today? Why, it is 46 degrees! Getting up was tough. It was a 3 hour process. We woke up at 5 a.m. Hub’s alarm went off; he was taking the kids to an outside event today. I had to give one of my dog’s his medicine. I switched the a/c to heat and then jumped back into bed and turned on the electric blanket. AAH. But lights were on, and activity was happening, the dogs were restless. Almost falling back to sleep, Boo woke me up trying to play. About 6 a.m., I gave in and got up, made coffee, crawled back into bed and watched a little Netflix with the free tv juice (satellite) until 8 a.m. I just couldn’t coax myself out of the cozy, warm bed.
Everything is sore for the most part. It’s the damp that is getting me. When the front came in last night it rained, the damp sleathly crept into the stillness of my bones. Hips, lower back, ankles….these are the places the cold likes to settle. My BFF in the winter is a heating pad. I seriously have about 5 of them pretty much everywhere! School, couch, bed, office chair. I really need to get a heated car seat! Maybe Santa can check that out for me.
It’s been a good week. I’ve done more this week than I have in the past 2 months, or at least it feels that way. For the most part, my energy has been decent, and my mood has been a positive one. One thing I have realized this break is that I’ve become overly cautious. What I mean is this: I never know how I will feel after doing something out of the ordinary in my daily routine, whether that is an extra hour at work, taking on a project, going out to dinner, etc. With this in mind, I go about my every day doing the known routine and scared to do anything outside of this routine because I don’t know what the result will be. I know this sounds a little crazy, and it kind of is, but my worry is that if I break my regular routine and overdo, I may be paying for it longer that I want to or can afford to financially and otherwise. So, I err on the side of doing less.
The result of playing it ultra safe has been that I have sacrificed some of myself and my relationships with others. It is true. And this does hurt. It’s just really hard to figure out a balance as far as my energy tank is concerned so there isn’t a terrible backlash. I’m not sure how to navigate this new found obstacle I am now aware of.
In perspective though, I am grateful that I have energy to worry about doling out. This is a definite sign of improvement and I’ll take it. Any tricks or tips you can share about managing your energy account?
I hope you all have had a good, pain free week. Until next time, stay frosty – B
