Happy Christmas

and happy holidays to all! 


P.S. The photo is what I wish the weather would be today and not the reality. Here this Christmas day, we have a balmy 75. It may reach 80? The air conditioner is on. But the photo is beautiful! 💕

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A Week Long Lyme Headache

I woke up this morning, early, and I was really excited because I didn’t have a headache! Yippee, thought I. And then I realized that I’ve had a headache for over a week now. Maybe 10 days? It subsides off and on, but I think it is the same damn headache. Maybe not, but that really doesn’t matter all that much. The pain matters more.

It may be the insane weather we are having. Last week at this time, it was 80 degrees. Then by Sunday, it was 27 degrees out. And today? A rainy and moist 75. Seriously. So, yeah, there’s that. It may be that the semester just ended and even after 16 years of teaching, it’s still pretty stressful. More stressful when chronically ill. So, there’s that too.

There have been a few days these past few weeks where I just keep taking medicine and hoping one of the many selections will just give me some relief, and periodically something has. Usually it is maybe an hour or so at a time. Then, the monster returns. It isn’t a migraine. It’s just a constant pain inside my skull.

Before Lyme disease, I rarely had headaches. The only headaches I experienced were either alcohol induced or hormonal. Indeed, I was a lucky duck. My mom has had issues with headaches her whole entire life including migraines. And my husband also has migraines periodically that lay him out for most of the day/night.

Then, in the fall of 2012, I began to have daily headaches. Not crippling, mind you, but just enough pain to not be able to ignore. Every day at work, by noon, I could feel it coming on (or maybe it never really went away). Sometimes, nausea would accompany the headache. The Daily Headache continued for months on end. Of course, there were a multitude of other symptoms going on but the headaches were something quite new and stood out more than say the fatigue or the periodic joint pain.

When I saw the Worst Infectious Disease Doctor Evah (although statistically, ID doctors are NOT LYME LITERATE) in January 2013 with a solid 25 symptoms including the onset of the new Daily Headache, he told me to drink more water (since I was hospitalized with a horrible kidney infection in 2006 I drink almost a gallon of water daily). The ID doctor dismissed every single symptom I explained to him but the bitterness of that particular doctor visit is for another time. Needless to say, almost all of my symptoms were classic LYME DISEASE symptoms and luckliy, I was diagnosed (and CDC positive) less than 6 weeks after this visit with the dismissive ID doctor. Anyhoo!

As I moved into oral antibiotic treatment, the headaches continued except at some point, I can’t pinpoint when, I began to have migraines. WTH! Migraines really suck! I now can empathize way more with my mom and my husband and others! Hours and hours of pain, nausea, ugh. For a while, and I can’t be more specific because of my short-term memory issues (LYME symptom as well), I had daily headaches and then migraines in between. Good times. I am so sorry if you suffer from headaches and/or migraines, my peoples!

When my LLMD took me off of antibiotics full-time last November 2015, I still had the headaches. And the migraines. But, slowly and surely, these daily headaches and the migraines began to let up a bit. So, for the past few months, probably since say June (again, short-term memory loss!), there’s been a reprieve from the daily headache. Since June, I’ve had maybe 3 full-blown migraines. This has been progress! I think that this progress has been the result of many things coming together at once, such as Lyme treatment (after so many years going untreated) and dietary changes.

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But, since Thanksgiving, my diet has been seriously not so good. I had cut out all sugar, carbs, cut down on wheat and corn products. Oh, Thanksgiving. I mean, I haven’t gone totally CRAZY with eating sugar, etc. but I have been drinking more soda and well, I sure haven’t been grain-free. I plan on getting right back on my diet after Christmas. I can see now that it has helped me to control some symptoms and while it was a bit of an adjustment to new eating habits, it certainly is worth it.

Like I said, this headache started about a weekish ago. On my last day at work, before Winter Break, I sat in my classroom, in the dark, just trying to work through the pain (no worries, I didn’t have students LOL).  Saturday was much of the same. At least this week the headache hasn’t been a full-blown migraine but still. I’ll tell you though, I most definitely appreciate the time I have without headaches now. Pre-Lyme, I never noticed how wonderful it is NOT to have a headache. Chronic Lyme disease continues to teach me lessons. Hey, just trying to stay positive! 🙂

And, here comes my little friend. Back again today. Time to rest a bit. 

Toodles friends – B

 

Broken Dreams

The World according to Dina

Broken Dreams
Geplatzte Träume

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Thinking about dreams we noticed that following your dreams is often praised in a one-sided manner. Basically there is nothing wrong with it except it’s quite naive. Dreams and especially grand dreams are quite often an illusion. So it’s good and healing that those dreams don’t come true. The last scene of the film “Zorbas the Greek” got us thinking when Alexis is so happy about the great crash of a dream.

Denken wir über Träume nach, fällt uns auf, dass oft einseitig das Folgen seiner Träume gepriesen wird. Das ist grundsätzlich richtig, aber naiv. Träume und speziell grandiose Träume haben häufig etwas Illusionistisches. Es ist geradezu gut und heilsam, dass diese Träume nicht Erfüllung gehen. Uns hat die Endszene des Films „Alexis Sorbas“ zu denken gegeben, in der sich Alexis über den großartigen Zusammenbruch eines Traums freut.

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Picking up the pieces…

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LuAnn, the Hound

Merry Christmas, ya’ll! Well, almost. And Happy Holidays, my friends!

LuAnn is ready for Christmas

#luannticcss is ready for the holidays!

This is LuAnn getting her Season’s Greetings on. LuAnn graced our family with her presence (I found her on a deserted highway on one of the coldest days of the year, 2012) about 4 years ago. She’s a hound dog mix and she’s a source of unending entertainment.

If you want to know more about this crazy hound, you can check out a post from this past summer: Meet LuAnn.

Sending Love your way – b

Don’t Doubt Your Resilience

My school community was turned upside down this past week due to a tragic accident involving several of our current students. Two students died and one student is in critical condition and still hospitalized after a week of surgeries. One student and the drivers of both vehicles involved were uninjured.


This kind of event makes us all slow down and reflect. We ask ourselves all kinds of “what ifs” and we replay many things and moments in our heads. I hope it makes me more compassionate and understanding of all of my students as well as others in general. The student who survived this horrible accident is actually one of my students. We are navigating this new terrain day by day, and I’m amazed by his courage.

I found the quote below stored in my Color Note app from few years ago this past weekend. These words really spoke to me on all kinds of emotional levels. I sincerely hope that perhaps you might find  these words as comforting as I have. Peace – b

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.” 

― Daniell Koepke

Welcome Sign

Happy Sunday, friends and neighbors.

Spread love and peace – b

Immanuel Mennonite Church

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Print your own poster for your front yard.  Get a group of friends or your church together and get a local printer to make some for all of you.  If you are in the Harrisonburg, Virginia area, we will have a few at the church that can be purchased.  Join us in welcoming everyone to our communities.  Make a statement in this time of division about our desire to be welcoming communities.
Just download the PDF, and it is ready to print a 24″ X 18″ sign. Please keep the text as it is when you use this sign. Please share where you posted the sign on the Facebook page.  https://www.facebook.com/welcomeyourneighbors

Welcome Sign – Spanish, English, Arabic.pdf

Welcome Sign – French, English, Arabic.pdf

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Just Well, No.

Hi my people. Yep, I’m missing you too. But, I am struggling with inspiration and with life in general at this point it seems. These past few months have been tough. I know I am being vague in a way, and I am so not trying to be evasive. Overall, it’s been a challenge to keep working. A real challenge. Don’t get me wrong. I love my job. But overall, it has just been a struggle to keep it up while dealing with the chronic fatigue and a myriad of illnesses I contract due to my sucky immune system.

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So, yeah, both the emotional and the physical challenges of working a full-time job have pretty much consumed all of my time in recent months. Unfortunately, I am also trying to dig deep to find joy. Even in the little things. I don’t know if it is the time of year or the incessant constant day to day barrage of symptoms, or the trying to escape some of the chronic symptoms that seems to have made me shut-down a little on the inside. I’m trying to figure it out but honestly, I have found even that kind of thinking and reflection just exhausting. IDK.

I just wanted to check in becasue, well, I miss the blogging world and my blogging people. I promise that I am making a concerted effort to get myself back on track and back in the Game so to speak.

I hope this finds you well and full of JOY. Peace. -b