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Closet Crying is The Best
I do my best to try and keep it together. I can pretty much manage to do this at work, even on the tough health days, which are many. But once I am home, I just let it all out.
At times, I’m like a pot boiling over. The buildup from the day: hiding the pain, trying to be energetic, fighting the fatigue, dealing with 100 things at a time along with 150 students a day, can definitely wear me down. Then, I get home, there are animals to take care of, laundry to get washed…you get it. And if I am also dealing with symptoms that are heightened such as joint pain, or insomnia, the list goes on….well then something’s gotta give.
When things just get to be too much, I go into the closet to have a good cry. Yes, I said the closet. It isn’t a huge area but it’s big enough that I can lay down and stare at the ceiling. I can turn off the light, and it is nice and quiet in there! At one point, and sometimes still, lights and noise trigger me. So, in the closet, we can block out both!
I head in there and have a bawl, literally. It sounds dumb, but it is a safe place for me. I can just let everything out without censorship from myself or anyone else. While I hate getting to this point because I am usually just brimming with the stress of trying to fake it and/or dealing with the stress of multiple symptoms, along with just daily things in life (daily things I’m not very adept at doing anymore), once I start the big cry, I begin to feel better. In some ways, I think I am just giving myself permission to let it all go.
If my husband is around, he often times will find me in the closet when I am crying, or what I like to call processing :). He’s very supportive, and he’ll just hug me until I am finished. Sometimes, the dogs will sniff me out, and they will come in for support. By the time I finish up the tears, I feel more focused and aware of what is really important and pressing and what is not.
Do you have a favorite place to let it all out? Please let me know I am not the only one who does something like this! 🙂
I hope your week is going well. Peace – B
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The shower is my place!
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Oh that’s a good one, too. I just like to lay down lol
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It forces me to cry fast. Hot showers make me weak and tired. Lol
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That’s a great strategy! We have to let it out somehow! I always seem to feel a little better after a good cry.
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In the closet crying now. Glad I’m not crazy. My pain disease is Charcot-Marie-Tooth Disease.
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I am too depressed at the moment with my Lyme issues to cry. Crying is a good release.
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Oh Sherry, I’m so sorry. I went through several years of feeling like a zombie. I had no emotions. My doctor said it was because my body was so busy fighting the bacteria and viruses that it just couldn’t do much else. I don’t know if this is true or not, but it does make sense. Once I started feeling a bit better, things have started to come back to me. Please know that it will get better.
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I do know. I have been worse then better then worse then better then worse 🙂 I feel I am starting to be on an upswing now with the new treatments.
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I’m glad to hear it!
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💖💖
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Thanks for checking out my blog!
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Ditto! 😊
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Usually the shower
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That’s a great place too!
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