I was able to return to work today after a medical leave of 5 weeks. And while I am glad, I’ve been very anxious about it. I guess because I got so worn down and in such a chronic fatigue flare (plus reactivated EBV), I wasn’t and still am not 100 percent I’m going to make it every day. And that worries me. Acceptance is definitely something I need to revisited and reflect on constantly at this point.
Sleeping barely a few hours last night was not ideal at all, but also not unexpected. I’ve been out since we started winter break December 17th. And most of the past 5 weeks, I’ve spent in bed or at the very least in the recliner. Not a lot of up and at ’em time if you know what I mean!
Today went well. I was very happy to see my students and colleagues. Everyone was very supportive and welcoming. I’ve never missed this kind of time for sure. It will take a few days or a week to get back into the groove with my students, but they’ve been real champs.
My hope is that I can make a few changes that might help me pace myself better. It’s hard not to get into just survival mode (which obviously even that wasn’t working). I thought I was doing a decent job managing the chronic illnesses, but I guess not so much.
Grateful list for today:
1. Getting to see and interact with all of my students for the first time in 2022
2. Staying upright for about 7+ hours today
3. Cinnamon apple tea
Take care, my friends. Hope it was a good day in your world. – b