I was able to return to work today after a medical leave of 5 weeks. And while I am glad, I’ve been very anxious about it. I guess because I got so worn down and in such a chronic fatigue flare (plus reactivated EBV), I wasn’t and still am not 100 percent I’m going to make it every day. And that worries me. Acceptance is definitely something I need to revisited and reflect on constantly at this point.

Sleeping barely a few hours last night was not ideal at all, but also not unexpected. I’ve been out since we started winter break December 17th. And most of the past 5 weeks, I’ve spent in bed or at the very least in the recliner. Not a lot of up and at ’em time if you know what I mean!

Today went well. I was very happy to see my students and colleagues. Everyone was very supportive and welcoming. I’ve never missed this kind of time for sure. It will take a few days or a week to get back into the groove with my students, but they’ve been real champs.

My hope is that I can make a few changes that might help me pace myself better. It’s hard not to get into just survival mode (which obviously even that wasn’t working). I thought I was doing a decent job managing the chronic illnesses, but I guess not so much.

Grateful list for today:

1. Getting to see and interact with all of my students for the first time in 2022

2. Staying upright for about 7+ hours today

3. Cinnamon apple tea

Take care, my friends. Hope it was a good day in your world. – b

11 Comments on “Back

  1. I know what you are going through. I ma on a downward spiral again and will probably need treatment. I can’t find a doctor who is in network so must rely on The Morrison Center in NYC – very expensive. I pray you find the strength to keep going.
    I wasn’t getting your posts thanks to WP. Fixed it for now.

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    • Hi Sherry, I’ve been thinking about you. I know there for awhile you were doing better, and I’d hoped that would continue. I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling again. Getting treatment that works and that is affordable is such a challenge! I hope you can get the treatment you need quickly. Hang in there. Please take care, friend.


  2. Thank you for sharing!!… congratulations!!.. perhaps you may have to make a few adjustments but you will overcome… you have friends and family that will help you along the way…. 🙂

    Until we meet again..
    May flowers always line your path
    and sunshine light your way,
    May songbirds serenade your
    every step along the way,
    May a rainbow run beside you
    in a sky that’s always blue,
    And may happiness fill your heart
    each day your whole life through.
    (Irish Saying)

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