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The CDC and IDSA continues the Lyme long con….
I am sure everybody hits points in their lives when they sit back for a moment and reflect on where they are, what their plans are for the future, how will they get things accomplished, etc. I know I used to do this periodically. Reflection has always been a part of my life. Pre-Lyme disease, I was always positive that the future would always be filled with unending growth and opportunities, both personal and otherwise.
Now? I’m in the midst of trying to treat a real illness, one that has been in my body silently and insidiously taking over. Lyme bacteria – a corkscrew-shaped bacterium called Borrelia burgdorferi – has played the Lyme Long Con with me and hundreds, I mean THOUSANDS, of others. For years and years it has slowly but surely, patiently, illness after illness, entered almost every single system in my body.
But the CDC and IDSA (Infectious Diseases Society of America) panel are also complicit in this LONG CON, the Lyme Lie, the Lyme denial, against all of us. For years, the CDC has claimed that Lyme disease is difficult to contract and easy to treat. Yet, in the past 40+ years, science has confirmed that there are 300+ strains of Borrelia bacteria with Lyme being merely only one of these 100s of strains that are all transmitted by ticks, fleas, and mosquitos worldwide.
This is so ludicris at this point that I honestly don’t understand how the CDC can still be promoting this misinformation. Just a few years ago, the CDC changed its number of newly contracted Lyme infections from 30,000 to 300,000 yearly. Yes, from 30,000 to 300,000!! A YEAR. And many believe that this number is much lower than actual cases each year. 300,000 PER YEAR. Let that sink in. Just to give us some perspective, there are about 50,000 new HIV cases and 200,000 breast cancer cases each year in the US. Yet, almost no money is going into researching Borrelia complex diseases.
I want to scream that BORRELIA INFECTIONs are real. LYME IS REAL. CHRONIC LYME IS REAL. CHRONIC LYME IS HAPPENING TO thousands of PEOPLE, not only in this country but globally as well! As patients, we need to have access to treatment, individualized treatment, treatment that lasts more than a mere 2-4 weeks of antibiotics. You may say, but what the heck does this have to do with your first paragraph. Well, everything, my friends.
Lyme has stopped me, as well as thousands of others, in my path. It has stalled me for awhile, off and on for years, and I unknowingly placed faith in the CDC, the American healthcare system, in my doctors, faith in health insurance companies. I placed my FAITH in these entities sure that they would find out why I was dealing with strange health issues off and on over the span of 3-4 years. They didn’t.
Then, I put faith into the fact that once diagnosed, I would be treated, and I would have a recovery plan. Alas, getting a Lyme diagnosis almost means nothing. The USA has done absolutely nothing to improve research, diagnosis, nor treatment since the disease was discovered (it’s been around for thousands of years) in 1975. Yes, take that in. 1975. We know almost nothing more now than we did then. In the meantime, THOUSANDS of people have gone undiagnosed and untreated. Thousands have been misdiagnosed with MS, Lupus, and ALS, along with other diseases and gone untreated for Borrleia infections. Why??? The treatment for Lyme and other Borrelia infections has not and cannot be easily monetized – YET. So we wait. And 300,000+ and more become infected every single year.
So here I am. Halted. Stopped for much longer than anticipated. Perhaps, stopped here permanently. I know, I know. I need to be positive. I need to buck up. I need to stop focusing on my illness. Most days, I can manage this. But this past month, not so much. Sometimes, we just need to GRIEVE a loss.Sometimes, we need to be ANGRY. Sometimes, we just need to BE.
If you would like more information about Borrelia infections (this includes Lyme bacteria infections) then please watch Under Our Skin. It provides some basic information regarding Lyme disease as well as information about how the CDC and the IDSA are working in tendem, not only to discredit Lyme doctors and patients daily, but on a much larger scale, how these two organizations are undermining the most dangerous health crisis of our time.
Please be careful. LYME IS EVERYWHERE – WORLDWIDE. Take care, my friends – B
Lyme is National Health Crisis NOW!!
This is an excellent in-depth article about our healthcare crisis here in the USA in regards to Lyme disease and co-infections. Please take a few minutes to read and process the continued negative results of the CDC not addressing this EPIDEMIC.
The Deafening Silence Returns: Lyme and AIDS.
Do you have any other examples of how AIDS and Lyme disease are similar as epidemics? Or different?
Since I have some time to do more research right now and the motivation to do so, I have been digging into the aspects of the Lyme controversy in our country (USA). I have been seeing many posts and articles recently that in some way or another compare Lyme disease and its prevalence to that of several aspects of AIDS epidemic here in the USA. As a young 10-20 year old growing up throughout these crisis years, the epidemic was not only the insanely tragic, it was a completely mishandled disease from the start, and ignored way too long by the science and medical fields, think CDC, think Infectious Disease Society of America, think NIH, and on and on, thus costing thousands upon thousands of lives. I just wasn’t so sure that comparing these 2 epidemics would work logically.
But what are some reasons I thought this analogy wouldn’t work? Well, Lyme doesn’t necessarily work as quickly in killing the body as AIDS has and still does (although now we have many ways to treat this infection so there are less deaths, thank goodness). Lyme is a different animal in that respect. The dead bodies of Lyme victims are not necessarily piling up on anyone’s doorstep. We don’t see Lyme disease in the news every day like we did with AIDS. Also, I felt that somehow by comparing the two infectious diseases that I was somehow trying to diminish the horrendous impact that AIDS made on people and their families, and especially on the gay community. I have no idea why I felt this way. I just did. Actually researching though has led me to a new conclusion.
In fact, Yes, the Lyme epidemic is in many ways VERY similar to the AIDS epidemic.
Let’s roll it back a few years, I mean DECADES.
“Besides Acquired Immunodeficiency Syndrome (AIDS), Lyme disease is now the most important “new” disease facing us today.”
Let that just simmer for a moment. “Most important.”
The above quote is taken from an unclassified scientific report conducted by our military. The report is titled, TICKS AND TICKBORNE DISEASES AFFECTING MILITARY PERSONNEL. Written in September 1989, this report is ” Approved for public release; distribution is unlimited. Conducted by Jerome Goddard, Ph.D. Medical Entomology Section, Epidemiology Division, USAF School of Aerospace Medicine, Human Systems Division (AFSC) Brooks Air Force Base, Texas 78235-5301.
Again, this extensive report was written in 1989 after extensive research. By our military. Here we are, almost 30 years later, and let me impress upon you, dear reader, there has been MINUSCULE, almost NIL, progress in researching and understanding of this disease, accurate testing and diagnosis of this disease, and in the treatment of this disease.
In 2013, the CDC reported findings from 2 separate entities that there are approximately 300,000 + new cases of Lyme disease every year. Please find those reports here: http://www.cdc.gov/lyme/stats/humancases.html. The CDC states that it receives about 30,000 cases of Lyme a year (this number is very low as these are only cases reported that meet the almost impossible requirements to identify Lyme set by IDSA.) The other reports the CDC lists on its page are both positive tested Lyme cases and clinical diagnosed Lyme cases, thus the 300,000+.
As Lyme sufferers, like our fellow AIDS victims, we are:
And yet. Here it is 2016. Absolutely nothing has changed. Just like AIDS sufferers, Lyme patients are shunned by doctors who have no experience with Lyme at all, or who rely strictly on the CDC testing criteria and the IDSA treatment guidelines. Even after all of these years, IDSA has yet change any of its treatment guidelines since 2006 when it published its dictated, repressive, and self-serving protocols. We are not treated well nor correctly by the medical field. I myself have been to several doctors who did not believe me nor my symptoms and just blew me off. We are labeled as hypochondriacs and/or attention seekers by both the medical community and our families and friends. Not being believed about a sickness that is so REAL is devastating both physically and emotionally.
Similar to AIDS patients in the early 80s and into the 90s, Lyme victims are not receiving the needed treatment to assist them in healing. Since there is so little being invested in Lyme research and understanding, patients must go to extreme lengths to find a doctor who will take them on and treat them as needed according to many skeletal, neuro, cardiac, and on and on manifestations of this disease. Lyme Literate doctors or LLMDs, do not take health insurance because of the possible legal implications. There have been many doctors brought before state medical boards and stripped of their medical licenses because the doctor had not followed the strict IDSA treatment. So our treatment, if we can even be diagnosed correctly, is extremely limited. Many of us seek our doctors in other states and in other countries.
Like many of those ill with AIDS, we are denied at every turn while trying to get diagnosed and treated promptly (this can happen via better testing and meticulous review and understanding of clinical symptoms). We are told that our symptoms are psychosomatic, all in our head, and we are brushed off or completely misdiagnosed with an autoimmune disease of which Lyme can and is in many, many cases, the root cause, such as Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis, MS, ALS, Fibromyalgia, or Chronic Fatigue just to name a few. We are denied coverage by health insurances due the published treatment guidelines from IDSA a DECADE ago. We are denied the opportunity to keep our jobs, our families, and our dignity.
But, people might say, well, we never really hear of anyone dying due to Lyme disease whereas throughout the 80s there were reports every single day about AIDS causalities. This is true. First and foremost, I will say again, all aspects of Lyme are being silenced on every front, from politicians to medical practitioners, from health insurers to the media outlets. But the biggest reason we do not hear about Death by Lyme is because an exorbitant amount of Lyme disease sufferers take their own lives. We take our desperate matters into our own hands. Suicide among Lyme victims is in itself an epidemic. Much of what we know about this is anecdotal, again, due to lack of funding and research. For more information, this is a great start “Lyme Disease and Suicide, an Ignored Problem.”
These are just a few things that Lyme disease and its victims has in common with AIDS and its victims. And to refer back to the quote at the beginning, we’ve known for over 30 years that Lyme disease is an EPIDEMIC.
Is Lyme an epidemic? Yes, it is and we’ve known this for over 30 years! Unfortunately, it is a silent one that leaves us rotting from the inside out, slowly but surely. Hopefully, like the AIDS community, the Lyme community can continue becoming a formidable movement, one that will hopefully save lives now and in the future!
Do you have any other examples of how these 2 diseases are similar? Or different? Could or should we possibly as a community learn from the AIDS epidemic and how it was forged into a massive movement? Just having all kinds of thoughts on this topic. Please leave a comment below. Thanks for reading. Peace – Belle
I think I may have mentioned before that I am in the process of accepting, or at least trying to accept, the fact that this disease is going to take a while to shake off. Not only am I struggling to come to terms with that, I am also struggling with the notion that this is a chronic condition (even though the CDC denies this fact). For me, there is a fine line between acknowledging the illness and embracing it. What I mean is that in my messed up brain, I feel like acknowledging that I do have chronic Lyme equals giving in. And, I am not a fan of that!
It is ridiculous, I know. Accepting does not equal giving in, but again, in my lymie brain, getting over the semantics of it seems to be a real challenge! Plus, I just read an article about Debbie Gibson in which she states that she doesn’t call her experience with Lyme Disease a battle, she calls it “overcoming” Lyme Disease. See here: http://www.people.com/article/debbie-gibson-lyme-disease-recovery. She says that referring to Lyme Disease as a battle gives it more power. Maybe. Maybe. So, I guess for me, maybe this is a similar conundrum.
Yes, there are bigger and more important fish to fry! But the reality is that I have been dealing with this disease for several years now. I spent about 4 years sick with no idea what was going on, and now I have spent another 21 months in treatment. Sometimes, it is difficult to think about all of this time spent “overcoming” this illness. Although, many people out there have suffered way longer than I have for sure. I just feel like the words I use in my self talk are really important. Do you feel this way? Or am I wasting time on something that really means nothing?
At first, when I started treatment, I did feel that it was a battle. But now, almost 2 years later, I feel battle weary. I was really hoping it would be a short war, and that I would be the victor! I bet we all had hoped this!! But here I am, years later and still, every day feels like I am fighting. Fighting to get up, to go to work, to make it through the work day…etc. I sure do not feel like I am overcoming anything! Lately, though, I have tried to just accept that indeed, getting up each day for work is a challenge, working all day is a challenge. I am trying to get my brain in sync with my body but without giving in.
Does any of this make any sense to anyone out there? Bottom line is that I know I need to accept this stage I am in more than I do right now so I can hopefully move forward and deal with life as it is right now a little better. But how do I acknowledge or accept where I am right now without feeling or thinking that I am giving in? Can anyone relate to this at all and if so, can you give me any suggestions/advice?
Wishing you all a pain free day. Peace-B
Lately, I have been struggling with the fact that my life has changed. When I first started treatment for Lyme disease, my mindset was that I get through this. I was willing to put in the time. I figured a year would be sufficient. I tested CDC positive for Lyme; I tested negative for the big 3 co-infections. Assuming that the results were correct, I set my mind to healing.
I still worked but my boss gave me the utmost flexibility to leave as needed and/or take absences as needed. I didn’t attend as many social events. I tried to get my proverbial plate as empty as possible. And, I made progress. I did. The backaches subsided, the intense daily neck pain finally went away, the migraines became less frequent, the exhaustion became manageable. All of this was great. Then, I guess I hit a plateau.
So, here I am. I am not 100%. Honestly, inside I feel about 40% of my old self. Outside, I think people actually see me as almost 80%. I am a great faker and a great lier when it comes to the presentation of myself to the outside world. I am sure this is the case for all of us with a chronic disease. But since school started this fall, I feel like I am backsliding. The extreme exhaustion is creeping back in.
I have started seeing my my life from the outside. It is a weird feeling. Does anyone else have bouts of this? I don’t think it is disassociative disorder, but maybe just parts of it. Sometimes, in order to get through the day and what it entails, I separate myself from my physical body. Creepy! No, not in a creepy way! When I do this, I feel like I can make it. It is as if I am managing my symptoms from the outside with less attachment to the pain and whatever discomfort is going on at that minute. The problem is though that I have been doing this for a few weeks now and it is starting to feel like I have two different lives. I just don’t know how to explain it well. Really, though, does anyone else have this going on or something similar?
It’s almost as if, when I do this, the separation, that I am looking at my life and my actions in a snowglobe. Sorry, it’s the best analogy I can think of! 🙂 I am guessing this is a coping mechanism the brain sets up. However, I just don’t want it to become a rabbit hole. Also, I am concerned that this snowglobe effect will become a crutch in the sense that at this point in time, I am not dealing well with the fact that I am now 19 months into treatment and I have hit a wall. Like everyone else with Lyme and chronic disease, this wasn’t my PLAN!
I am hoping all of you out there are having better days than not. Drop me a comment in regards to this thing I have going on with me mentally if you feel comfortable doing so. I appreciate any and all comments!
Happy weekend, pumpkins – B
Hello out there! Here’s my story for today:
We now have a new insurance; it usually changes every 2-3 years. However, now I cannot have my labwork done at my doctor’s office. I can only use a certain lab that is not available there on location. So, I had to find a lab I could use in my area. Done. No big deal. I had my visit with my doc Thursday and headed to the lab on Friday after work.
I know the medical building where the lab is located because it is in the area, and I have been there before to see another doctor of mine. As I exited the elevator on the 3rd floor, I looked to my right first to see if the lab was on that side of the hallway. BAM! The name if the Infectious Disease doctor I saw before being correctly diagnosed with Lyme Disease, was glaring at me. I started to swell with anger. I wanted to march in there and punch him in the face. Really! I said out loud, “You have to be f***ing kidding me!”. Luckily, no one was in the hall to hear my sailor mouth. My mind started swirling with all kinds of thoughts from that visit I had with him over 19 months ago.
When I was was referred to him by my PCP, it was a last ditch effort on her part. She is my family doctor, and both of us had been trying to get to the bottom of my fatigue, sleep disturbances, nausea, back pain, etc. for the past 3 years, I was in her office about every 4-5 months with symptoms, the worst was the crushing fatigue and every time, I tested positive for an EBV infection. I had been tested for everything and probably twice such as Lupus, Rheumatoid Arthritis, Vitamin D, infection, Thyroid, you name it. For the joint pain and numbness in my feet, I had seen an orthopedic doctor and a neurologist and had had a spinal and brain MRI. Nothing. After about the 5th time testing positive for an EBV infection, I was referred to the OD doctor. What was causing the recurring EBV? All my blood tests for the past 3 years were sent to him as well as any of my medical record from my PCP. He had my whole life in his hands.
By the time I headed to his appointment in the early spring of 2013, I was a complete mess. I was so exhausted, I could barely make it through the day at work. I was in pain much of the time. I was having headaches of which I had never before in my life. I wasn’t sleeping well, I had severe neck and lower back pain, shoulder and hip pain, stiffness, indigestion, nausea, you name it! I also was worried. By this point, I had been ill off and on, with symptoms cycling and becoming worse for the past 3 years. I knew something was really wrong. My PCP had been talking about Fibromyalgia and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome but she wanted to rule out any other options and so I had my appointment with the ID doctor.
Now, I am no sissy pants. I take things as they come, and I am a problem solver. I have always had a crazy awesome work ethic, and I take pride in what I do. At many junctures in my life, I was working 2 jobs. I exercised, and I was social. But in the past year for sure, a lot of that had changed due to my health. I looked forward in a way to this doctor visit because it would assumingly help rule some things out and perhaps even help me find an answer. Let’s just say, I had a lot invested in this visit, and I had faith in my PCP’s referral to this ID doctor.
It was the worst doctor visit I have ever had in my life. Literally. The doctor came in and began asking about why I was there and my symptoms. I explained the EBV activations. He stated several times that EBV is not recurrent and that the odds of this happening were slim to none. Ok. I asked about the blood work showing the EBV infection. Oh, your doctor didn’t run the correct labwork. Everyone shows “exposed” to EBV as mono. Ok. As far as my exhaustion, I needed to relieve some of the stress in my life. Really? For my daily horrible headaches, which I never experienced before, Drink more Water. At this point, I am starting to get aggravated, as much as I can in the exhausted state I am in. For my neck pain? Well, well, you are a woman, so I am sure you carry your purse to one side. Maybe you need an MRI? No, doctor, I just had an MRI this past summer and nothing, NADA, showed up. Lower back pain? Hmm. Right hip pain? Go back to your ortho doc. This went on for about 30 minutes. For every symptom, he had an answer and a stupid one. By the end o the appointment, I was even more confused, angry and emotional than I had been walking in. At the very end, I asked about the soreness all over my body. He pushed on some pressure points and said, Yep, you probably have Fibromyalgia. I asked for a doctor referral. He told me he would not refer me and that I had to go back to my PCP for a referral. OMG!! WTH. Are you kidding me?!?
I cried all the way home. From sheer exhaustion, from getting no answers whatsoever, and from getting no help. I felt so hopeless. I was drowning in all of this unexplained pain and fatigue and there seemed to be no light at the end of the tunnel. Although I drove away angry at him for his condescending manner and his refusal to even so much as take blood, I didn’t realize how terrible he really was until I was actually diagnosed. Two months later, thanks to my researching online and finding a doctor whose specialty is FMS and Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, I tested full blown CDC positive for LYME DISEASE.
So, now, after being in treatment for 18 months and still plugging along, I walked off the elevator and I was taken back to my visit with HIM. I will have to have all of my lab work done there, 4-5 times a year, and I will have to pass his office. I am still trying to understand why this has come back into my path after all of this time; I wonder what I am supposed to make of it. Any suggestions or ideas? I know what I want to do, but it wouldn’t be productive nor healthy for me.
If you think of a productive way I can deal with this doctor, please let me know! I feel like my doing nothing just condones his ignorance and his unbecoming attitude. It feels wrong to do nothing, Like he did to me.