Today has been a tough one symptom-wise. Since we are on break, the last few weeks have been pretty sweet. I can rest when I need to so this helps immensely. But today. Oiy.
I’ve had overall soreness since I awoke at 5 a.m. My lower back, hips, right knee, and ankles have been aching. I canceled an appointment today because, well, yeah, I wasn’t making it. The bed has been my constant companion today along with 2 heating pads and some medication. Oh and some loyal puppies. Maybe I’m herxing. Its been a week or so since I’ve had one. IDK.
But tomorrow is a new day. The quote above just spoke to me in all the right ways. I hope all is golden in your neck of the woods. Peace, friends -B
P.S. Pups in a row from top: Chino, Pico, Boo Boo. 😍
Well, I certainly haven’t been diligent with posting. Just a quick update, I’m still having issues with my lower back. Insurance has denied a lumbar MRI. Doctor exploring possible colon issue, possible pinched nerve, and a few other things. The pain is bearable, and I just don’t have the gumption to fight the insurance on it. My kidneys are good and they were my main concern. However, I have had all kinds of other check-ups and doctor visits just to make sure the rest of me isn’t falling apart: eye doc, dentist, general doctor. All of those visits have turned out just right. None of this is an excuse for not posting!
Hopefully, all of you enjoyed the 4th of July weekend. We had plans both Saturday and Sunday, but Lyme played its card, and it was a doozey. One positive is that since I have been having better days, I can really feel the herx when it comes on. I started feeling under the weather on Saturday. I honestly just chalked it up to a busy week; I actually was doing things a “normal” person might do! Running errands, grocery shopping, doctor visits. It was all kind of amazing. I haven’t been up for much of any of that in a really long time. Last summer I had a PICC line so I was somewhat limited in my scope. I also didn’t feel really great most of the 5 weeks I was dosing. Anyway, by Saturday afternoon I was in bed with a headache. My husband had to go to our friends’ party by himself but he was very understanding and that helped me not feel so cruddy.
By Sunday though, all was lost. I woke up about 3 a.m. and felt so nauseous. I managed to slip back to sleep for a few hours but by 6 a.m. I was up. Everything was hurting. Joints, head, tummy. Oiy! I took a hot Epsom salt bath and went back to bed. Yet again, we had to cancel with friends. But I just couldn’t even “suck it up”! I mean, have you ever felt that kind of nausea where you just do not want to move because it makes it worse? Yes, that was my Sunday in a nutshell. I was literally in bed all day long. And no reading or anything productive. The little a/c window unit on high, the curtains drawn, and the heating pad on full blast was what my day entailed. I finally crawled out of my cave about 7:30 p.m. and ate some corn on the cob.
Today is better. I’m exhausted and my stomach is still making some strange noises but overall, I feel like I am going to make it. I really thought I was doing a decent job on detoxing but maybe not so much. I am just so grateful that it is summertime, and I can manage this disease a lot easier and without inconveniencing a bunch of people. Of course, I am sorry to have missed all of the fun with our friends. Trying not to beat myself up about letting people down is a real struggle for me, as I am sure it is for all chronic disease warriors.
Again, I hope this was weekend you were able to make some great memories, – B
Hello out there! I apologize for being gone for so long.
I had a bit of a scare though, and it has been a struggle to get back on track. So I caught a cold at the end of March. It was the 3rd one I have had this year; the immune system is shot and I am a teacher. The odds were not in my favor. Also, it was a stressful time of year, state testing, and I guess all of this made for the perfect storm.
On a Monday, I got up like I normally do. I had coffee and started to get ready for work. About 30 minutes later, I started feeling really dizzy and nauseous. It was terrible. My head started pounding, and I had to lay down. I could not go to work like that.I spent the entire day in bed, fluctuating between sleep and pain and nausea. The next day, the same scenario played out. Wednesday I went to my LLMD. She tested me for h pylori, EBV, and Mycoplasma. She told me to rest through the weekend.
I will tell you, this was a scary experience for me. With all of the symptoms I have encountered with my travels with Lyme, I have been able to manage them to a degree. But the dizziness? This was new and something I definitely could not control. I was out of work a week. I have never missed that much school, even when I got married. It made me start thinking about all kinds of crazy (yet possible) scenarios. I tried to figure out a Plan B,C, and D. None of those plans look too great. We need two salaries. I most likely cannot qualify for any disability as I have been working. I have been trying to save monies for an “emergency” in which I might use up all of my sick days and still need time off. But what if there is a point where I really cannot work? I don’t have an answer for this.
After all of my labs came back, it really wasn’t clear why I was feeling so terrible. By the end of the weekend, I was on the mend, but again, there really was no clear answer to why I felt the way I did at all. In my own medical experience …ah,hmm, I am guessing that my body was just done. The cold knocked me down and then along with the stress and the Lyme and Mycoplasma, I just didn’t have a shot.
Since that incident, I have been feeling a tad better. Less overall pain, more mental clarity than I have had in quite sometime and less fatigue. Go figure.I had 2 full weeks of feeling almost normal and now, the headaches and the joint pain is creeping back in. Anyway, I hope this finds you pain free. Take care! Peace -B #lymediseasechallenge
What a week!! I thought there about Tuesday and Wednesday that I wouldn’t make it, but guess what? I did! I wonder at what costs though. I say this because I have been struggling all weekend with symptoms. Most aggravating is the all over soreness and pain. Then, there are the IBS issues. And then the indigestion issues. All of this hit me on Friday at school, and it hasn’t let up. NO MERCY!
Without TMI, I just feel all over terrible. If I can get one issue to subside, another flares up. I have tried epsom salt baths, resting, pain pills, alka selzer gold, heating pads, gingerale, tea…..nothing, nada. I am pretty sure this is what is mean by herxing! I have tried taking my mind off the total uncomfortableness of being me by reading, Facebook, grading essays, playing Candy Crush, watching Netflix. Alas, I just can’t get out of myself enough to feel better.
I missed an event last night, a family event, and so that was tough. Then, today, my husband is working on his new shop area and of course, I am in no shape to help. Instead, my 60+ year old in laws are slaving out there. I feel so useless. It all hit me this morning in the shower, which was a chore in and of itself, and I just gave in and started crying. I do have meltdowns like this every so often but it’s been awhile. I do not like it when this happens because I feel so helpless. I feel like I have lost some pieces of me that I may never get back. I feel like I am at the edge of a cliff, teetering, looking into a vastness, a place where nothing changes and I just continue to struggle every day.
I know deep down that this is just a culmination of being exhausted, stressed, and depressed. I guess being aware of all of these things helps? My husband says that it is a good thing to have a meltdown every now and then, to grieve about this illness. And, for the most part, I do feel better after my little meltdowns. How do you deal with all of the stress and symptoms of Lyme disease? Any tricks you can share with us? I think I need some Kid President today.