Is Boredom a State of Mind?

How do you do boredom?

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With so many things I can do with my time, I have quite honestly never been bored. Even in waiting rooms, hospitals, airports. I’ve always been an active person, so when I got sick or better yet, progressively became very sick, activities began dropping off to the point that my main activity now is work.

These past few years I’ve spent much of my time not at work in bed. Still, I could never say I have been bored. In pain, nauseated, yes. When first diagnosed, I really struggled to read anything more than a few sentences due to the severe brain fog and lack of concentration (many are diagnosed with ADD before Lyme disease).

I occupied ( occupy!) myself with reading a lot of blogs and news stories. I’ve listened to music. I’ve watched mucho Netflix. I’ve used my happy memories to escape from the present symptoms I might be experiencing.

I’ve never understood this idea of “being bored.” Do you? What kinds of things do you like to do to keep yourself occupied or if like me, to keep your mind occupied?

A good evening to you, friends – B

Netflix is My Friend

Well, it is a beautiful November day here in the south and yes, I did spend a few hours outside. In a heated whirlpool. Pure HEAVEN. I have decided that I need one of these here at the house. I wish!  Anyway, that is a bit off topic. I’ve never been much of  television watcher; my parents restricted it when we were kids, and I am so glad that they did. I learned that a t.v. should not be on unless one is watching a program. Now, in the 21st century, there are televisions everywhere: doctor offices, grocery stores, restaurants, you name it. Honestly, it is so amazingly annoying.

However, I guess I am now an official hypocrite. We don’t subscribe to cable t.v. but man, we [really, Me] sure can watch some Netflix. Netflix rules! I am officially an addict since becoming ill. While I love to read, reading anything for any extent of time often boggles my brain. You may experience this as well. I sit down to read a book, and then about 3-4 pages in, my head starts to hurt, my eyes don’t/won’t focus, and/or my brain just feels very confused and stressed. So I stop. This doesn’t happen all of the time, but enough so that I don’t do it as much or anywhere near as much as I used to. I am hoping that further into treatment, my reading skills will come back to me. My doctor says this is some of the neuro lyme staking its claim. She is confident it will go away in time.

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Anyway, to stop making excuses for myself, once we purchased a smart t.v. about a year ago, it was on. We live in the country so we have satellite internet, but streaming still works pretty well. I am not going to lie. I love being able to watch shows without commercials and whenever I want to for the most part. It really is the one indulgence I have at this point in the game and one I enjoy. I can watch on the laptop, the t.v. or my Kindle. It is Awesome! 🙂  I know it is a form of escapism but for now, I am OK with that. Would I rather be out doing things, or reading, or creating a masterpiece? Why, of course, but right now, I physically cannot do any of those things because of the pain and fatigue. Netflix is kinda my BFF for the time being, I am a tad embarrassed to say!

What is one or two indulgences you partake in since you can’t do certain things like we used to? Don’t worry. We are among friends! No judgement! 🙂

Happy Sunday all you people, -B