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Hi, my people! Well, here we are, post-election in the states and moving quickly towards the holidays.
When I was first diagnosed with Chronic Lyme disease, now almost 4 years ago, I thought I knew what it was all about. You get bit by a tick, you might get sick, and then you are treated and cured quickly. HAHAHA! Little did I know! So once I began researching this crazy and unpredictable disease, I began realizing that there is no CURE. That in many cases, including mine, Lyme cannot be merely treated with 14-28 days of oral antibiotics. Not even. And I began to understand, especially after being sick 6 – 12 months, that I was going to have to try out some unconventional, non-Western medicine options, to treat this bacterial infection.
I had been hearing and reading about CBD oil long before I decided to try it out. Information was mixed but the one common denominator seemed to be QUALITY of the product. Yet, I had no idea where to even begin. My first foray into the CBD sphere was, and now regrettably, a product I found and purchased from a seller on Craigslist. I know, I know. Believe me, I really was clueless, and in my Lyme social circle, no one had a recommendation for me. But I knew that I wanted to try this option. No Bueno. Honestly, I think there was turpentine in it. I tried to take it a few times, but the taste was just so disgusting, I could barely gag it down.
From that point on, I realized, and the hard way, that I needed to invest in QUALITY. I continued my research and then recently, I was offered an opportunity to try out HoneyColony’s CBD Oil. I have tried this company’s products in the past, and I have not been disappointed. I jumped at the chance to try out their CBD Oil.
HoneyColony’s CBD Hemp Oil is a blend of several ingredients, including Teasel root as well Astragalus Root. You can visit this page for a much more detailed list and explanation. I have tried both of these roots before in the past with some positive effects, but not at the same time and not as a part of a CBD Oil mix. When my product arrived, I was really excited to give it a shot!
I know some people may be hesitant to try CBD Oil as there is a lot of misinformation out there, including that it makes you “high.” However, according to HoneyColony, “Cannabidiol (CBD) is extracted from the Cannabis plant and has no euphoric properties whatsoever. This formulation offers all the health benefits of CBD without the feeling of being high.” At no point of my using this product have I ever had a euphoric feeling or a feeling of being “high.”
The first stop I made before adding this product to my daily routine was at HoneyColony’s 13 Commonly Asked Questions about their Superior CBD Oil product ranging from ingredients to usage. Since this quality CBD oil is mixed with coconut oil (no weird ingredients in this product!), this oil has a very smooth taste. There is no aftertaste nor did it bother my throat or stomach. It is silky sweet and easy to administer. I take just a drop in the morning and then one at night. While I haven’t necessarily seen a huge impact in the morning for myself (and mornings are so, so difficult for me), I have experienced an effect in the evening. While I struggle with getting up, the joint stiffness and fatigue, lately, I have really been having sleep issues. I can go to sleep, but then I tend to wake up 3-6 times a night. It’s been a serious hindrance in the past few months.
So I started taking a drop of oil about an hour before bedtime as suggested on the 13 Commonly Asked Questions page. This seems to help me relax enough to get to sleep. Recently, I have also started taking a drop when I wake up during the night. Doing this has been beneficial in helping me get back to sleep and to stay asleep throughout the night!
Look, HoneyColony products are top-quality products! Yes, the price is higher, but again, the QUALITY is worth every penny. I’ve tried enough other inferior CBD oil options to pay twice over what the cost of one of HoneyColony’s CDB bottles cost. I’ve thrown away more that I care to share. And this bottle that I received about a month ago is still more than half full. I won’t go anywhere else in the future to purchase CBD Oil other than HoneyColony!
Happy Sunday, my friends. Take care – B
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Today, I’m headed to my local doctor to talk with her about the sleep issues I’ve been having. We’re heading back to school Monday for 10 more weeks of this semester, and I just can’t keep on like I have been these past 3 months.
It’s taking a toll on everything, and I’ve tried so many things to try to get it back on track. I’m honestly hoping she gives me medication to knock me out. I know there are repercussions on the other side, but I need help until the beginning of June.
I was lucky to get in today; I just called yesterday for a last minute appointment. But I’m glad I won’t have to take a day off to do this. I already have taken a few days off just because of exhaustion and fatigue, and I have to take off for my every 3 months appointment, so this is lucky!
Today, we were originally going to head to the San Marcos river overnight. We haven’t been in about 9 months. But we had to change the reservation at the last minute (LM had to have a root canal-ugh!) and then hotel called and said they overbooked so we got cut. It was disappointing, but it’s going to be way too crazy busy in the city and at the river because of spring break so it’s a blessing in disguise. We love to go when it’s not overrun with people. Another time, hopefully.
Well, I guess I need to get busy sweeping and some laundry before I head out for downtown. I hope everyone has a good Friday! Peace- B
I woke up again last night about 3 a.m. We’re going on a few months of this right now, and all I can say is I’m Done. It’s only 10 a.m., and I can hardly keep my eyes open. I’ll be fighting fatigue all afternoon.
I’ve tried going to bed later, earlier, sleep meds, supplements, no devices, you name it. Some nights I can sleep a little better (more) than others, but pretty consistently, I am waking up at 3-3:30 a.m. and maybe, but most likely not, going back to sleep.
At this point, I feel like a zombie. Everything has become a little weird. Sometimes I think Is This Real Life? I spend most days struggling with the fatigue and just trying to get the basics done. Since December, I have definitely been in a CFS/FMS flare or episode or whatever we want to call it.
I’ve been able to manage to work full-time (basically). My job has been so awesome in letting me leave a little early as needed and my class schedule allows for this as well. Even leaving just 30 minutes early allows me to get home, take care of the anin]mals and lay down. I have had to take a few days off here and there, mainly to sleep and rest. I’m trying to avoid taking a medical leave; we’re already really strapped for subs because of COVID.
My LLMD started me on some antiviral drops for the EBV titers and a hormone cream to help with mood swings and hopefully, sleep issues. I’ve only just started both of those. Please let them work!
At least it is Friday. And only a week more until spring break. I’m hoping the sun comes out this weekend! 🙂 Be safe – B
It’s March 3rd. Only a week and some until our spring break begins. I’d like to say that I am excited. Honestly, I’m not, but I’ll be glad to not be at work. That sounds terrible, doesn’t it? But let me tell you, “teaching” in a pandemic is absolutely no fun.
This is year 20 for me, and I have enjoyed my career as a teacher. But, this? This isn’t teaching. This is something, but it ain’t that. We’re trying, we really are. I’m lucky that I teach high school. Also, my students are earning both high school and college credit so they are pretty motivated. I cannot imagine trying to do this with younger students. I don’t think I would make it.
We’ve been back teaching F2F and remotely since the end of August. Everyone has to wear masks and social distance. There are stupid plastic desk shields that have to be on almost every desk (let me tell you, these are doing nothing to contain the virus). I’ve got about 5 students that show up daily for F2F in every class and the rest are remote.
What does remote look like? Well, I guess I could have required students to have their cameras on at all times, but I didn’t and I don’t so I get to look at a screen with black squares with white names across them. Not one student turns on a camera. When I try to have a class discussion, silence on both sides. Zoom is soul crushing, ya’ll. Every.single.day.
I realize that all of this is just as hard on the students- 100%. I’m just missing how it was before March 2020, probably like the rest of us.
Supposedly, President Biden wants all school staff and day care workers to have at least the first COVID shot by the end of March. Good luck here in Texas. Our governor just lifted the mask mandate so that’s how that’s going…..
Anyway, my students are very sweet and understanding, I just wish I could do better for them and by them but I guess we’re all just doing the best we can right now. Take care, friends. – Belle
I’m in Texas and week before last was the brutal winter storm(s) that came in and basically shut our state down for about 4-5 days. We might have had one day of sunshine since? So, today, the sun is finally out in full force and well, we’re happy!
I mean I’m sitting in my classroom and not outside, which is too bad. But, at least I have big windows and the sun is streaming in. That makes everything better!
I’m still dealing with sleep issues. It’s ridiculous. Maybe I am getting a more sleep every other night, but who knows. Last night, I was able to go to sleep with no issues about 9:45……but then my eyes popped open at 3:30 and here we are. Alarm at 5 a.m. Barely able to keep my eyes open, I am here at work.
If this was happening just one night, I could manage, but this sort of thing has been going on for a few months now. Most of of the time, I can go right to sleep, but I wake up at 2 or 3 a.m.. Sometimes, I’m able to go back to sleep and sometimes not. It’s all catching up with me.
I think I think I have tried most of the sleep hacks out there, but I am so open. It’s getting to where I have to leave work early because I can’t function well once I hit about 2 p.m. or I am just taking a day off to try and recover.
I never had issues with sleep before Lyme disease and Chronic Fatigue. But since those started up……I have had several cycles of bad insomnia. No fun at all!
Not sleeping exacerbates all kinds of other symptoms, especially fatigue and brain fog. My doctor has put me on anti-virals and hormone replacement and I am really, really hope these help and soon. Fingers crossed!
Just a couple more class periods to teach and I can head out into the sunshine. I hope your day is going well. – B
It’s late, but Happy New Year, ya’ll! I really do hope your holiday season was fun and safe.
Well, back in December, I said that this fall semester at work had been very stressful. We came back in to school in August, both F2F and online, to call it a challenge is an understatement. Anyway, I made it through fall semester, and I thought, Awesome! No serious issues!
Yeah, NO. Over the winter break, I started having severe insomnia (again). This is a symptom I have dealt with the last 8 years related to Lyme, Fibro and CFS. It fluctuates, and it hadn’t been horrible for awhile. But it reared it’s ugly head, loud and clear! I also started having anxiety. I couldn’t relax at all. And yet, I was also fatigued.
Of course, it spiraled. The no sleep, anxiety, fatigue plagued me as we came back in January and plagues me still. I’ve had to trim my work schedule. Luckily, my work is understanding; otherwise, I would have to take a medical leave. I still may have to do this.
I’ve gone to my LLMD, my gyno, my other LLMD. Truly, I am trying to get things figured out. Because of my age, hormones are changing so that is some of it. But, I also have EBV active again, and obviously I’m dealing with both a Fibro and CFS flare right now.
I’ve started some antiviral drops and a hormone cream as of yesterday. I REALLY hope something helps me. I am not sure how much longer I can make it limping along this way. It’s starting to get to me in so many ways.
Do you have any recommendations on dealing with insomnia? If so, please drop a comment below.
I hope you and yours are doing well. Until next time, be well. – Belle
So, I’m one of those bloggers now. I haven’t written a post for several months. I’m not even really sure why I haven’t. Well, things have been topsy turvy, same as everyone else’s things I’m guessing!
The pandemic shut down our school district in March and so, we had to figure out how to finish the school year online. It was a strange time. I spent much of the summer completing online trainings, hoping to mitigate what might happen in the fall. School started late; we trained and tried to learn an online learning management system.I say “tried” because we barely received any training, and we’ve been working just one week ahead of our students all of this fall. It’s been a real sh*t show. Also, we were and have been teaching both face to face and online this whole semester. Once school started, honestly, I haven’t had a minute to spare and if I did, I was wiped out and resting or sleeping.
Considering the amount of stress I’ve been under at work, I’ve survived. I was really worried that I would end up in a exhaustion/fatigue flare. I’m still worried about it now that the semester ends in a few short days. Fingers crossed.
I also started a new medication this past May, disulfiram. Both of my LLMDs suggested that I try it out for the chronic lyme. At first, it wasn’t affecting me at all. BUt the dosages titrate up and when I got to a certain dose, I just could not tolerate it at all. I tried, I really did. I’ll write more about it soon, I promise. Anyway, let’s just say that September and October and most of November were dealing with the side effects of that medicine. I finally gave up and I’m taking a break. I’d like to try again, but it might have to wait until this coming spring, when things at work are hopefully, calmed down.
I hope you and yours are staying healthy and safe during this pandemic. Take care and thanks for reading!
I’m not sure where the time has gone. With school closures in March, my SO and I were working every day trying to keep up with the changing directions for remote learning. I’m really not sure why/how time has slipped by so fast!
Without a true final day for the school year (at least for teachers), I didn’t actually segue to summer until like maybe the beginning of July. And now, we’re waiting patiently to hear if/how our district will deal with the beginning of school which as of today is August 24th. As teachers, we’ll be back earlier but we’re not sure in what capacity.
It’s a lot to think about and with things changing daily at the state level, I’ve just tried to opt out right now. There’s no sense stressing over something that might change tomorrow.
While I honestly was not a fan of remote teaching overall, it did give me an opportunity to keep my health in decent shape. I actually was feeling good with only a few lingering symptoms hanging on. There were still days where I would have flares I guess I would call them, but they were few and far between. I was able to do things most of the day, hitting a wall about 4-5 p.m. with a short period of resting.
However, back in May, one of my LLMDs suggested trying out Disulfiram because of my lingering joint pain, sleep issues, fatigue. And after doing some of my own research, I decided I would try it out.
I’ve been on a super low dose for about 2 months now. I was rolling right along with no issues and I was thinking, well, what’s the big deal? Nothing is happening. I started to doubt that it was working at all. And then, bam! At the end of June, I had about 3 full days of feeling like hell. I spent most of those days in bed. All kinds of symptoms were going on fatigue, headache, joint pain, stomach issues. I wasn’t worried about COVID because these were all too familiar to me.
Since then, I’ve felt somewhat better. Symptoms kind of come and go so overall, I’m not feeling great. I had a phone appointment with one of my doctors last week and the doctor said yes, everything I’m dealing with are side effects of the Disulfiram at work. It’s stirring things up and killing bacteria. With the die off comes the symptoms if the body can’t keep up with detoxing. Sounds crazy, right? But it’s called a herx. I’m starting some new supplements that will hopefully help with this process.
Overall, I’m having a bit of a tough time dealing with this both physically and mentally. Physically, I’m trying to keep things stable and I’m trying to listen to my body when it tells me something like I need to lay down. This has been somewhat of an adjustment after these past few months of feeling better and being able to not worry about not feeling well every minute. So an adjustment for sure. Mentally, it’s been kind of messing with me. I feel like I’m being thrown back into being sick all of the time (I mean I’m chronically ill but I was on an upswing), and it’s both scary and depressing all at once. My main goal is to try to remind myself that This Too Will Change. And damn, it’s hard! But things have changed before and they will again. If I’ve learned anything with this disease, it’s that for sure.
Now, you might laugh because after all of this, I’ve decided to switch from one doctor’s protocol with this medication to another’s whose approach is a bit more assertive. This means that in another week, my dose will increase, and so too perhaps will the herxing. Now, I can always, always lower the dose if things get too crazy. Why not stay on the super low dose? Because that means I will have no change in dose for 3 months straight. And from everything I’ve read, dosing should increase periodically. There are other reasons, but I’ll leave it at that for now. So, ironically, I’m pretty much doing this to myself!
However, people really are seeing results from using this medication. People who have suffered years and years with Lyme disease. It took me awhile to decide whether to do this or not, and if I’m going to do it, I want to try to maximize results. Wish me luck!
I hope all of you are doing well and staying safe out there. Happy weekend! – belle
Sometimes, I forget how very sick I have been. I wonder if this is a survival technique the body uses to keep us going. Perhaps it keeps us from lingering too long in the abyss.
Just recently I’ve had a few experiences that have thrown me back to 3 years ago, or 4 or 5 years ago when all I knew was sickness. Years upon years of 24/7 torture. When it was all I could do to get to work 3-4 days out of 5. When the daily headaches and fatigue laid me out and if not, then the nausea and the mental confusion took over. When I was so exhausted minute to minute but then I couldn’t sleep. I was in a haze, a fog; if there is a hell, I was in it. And in it for years on end.
It’s so hard to describe to other people, people who are healthy or even semi-healthy, how sick I’ve been. Even for me, trying to remember how bad it has been is a challenge. Finding the words are very difficult, finding analogies that will convey the pit of illness are not easy to find.
When I was in the Worst of Lyme disease (at least I hope it turns out to be the worst of it), there were so many symptoms, both physical and mental that were going on simultaneously and sporadically that keeping track of these was near impossible for me. I tried writing things down, but that took just way too much energy and energy of which I had none to spare; I couldn’t manage it. I tried tracking apps but even those proved cumbersome.
Maybe it’s like being in a pool underwater and trying to talk to someone. You’re asking for help. You’re holding your breath, but also trying to communicate, but you are also running out of breath. It’s not an easy feat and in the end, no one understands what you are trying to say and there you are, left alone.
All of this is to say that obviously, I am making progress in my recovery. It’s just sometimes, I forget. In fact, I told some of my friends the other day that while I definitely want to keep improving my health, if this is it, if this is as good as it can get, I will take it. I still have lingering symptoms. I still have flares and cycles where things take a downturn and I’m sinking into the pit once more. But much of the time, I am better than I have been in a long time and damn, that’s something and something to hold onto.
Friends, I hope this finds you and yours safe and healthy. I’m thinking of you all.
Peace – Belle
Oh, yes. The elusive treatment that will bring the “cure.” I’ve been down that path a few times. When is it okay to be okay with where I am right now? It sounds like “giving up”, but is it? When does pursuing treatment actually become harmful?
Honestly, I don’t know the answers to these questions, but in a week or so, I am coming up on the 7 year anniversary of my Lyme diagnosis. And it’s already been a decade at least that I have been ill in some form or fashion. So, these questions are on my mind.
I can’t change the fact that in the USA, Lyme disease isn’t treated as serious even though according to the CDC, more that 400, 000 + are infected yearly. Even these numbers are low due to reporting issues. I can’t change that almost no monies go into to researching this disease, that testing is only maybe 30-40% accurate and that there are only experimental treatments beyond the IDSA doctrine of 4 weeks of antibiotics. I try not to think about any of this anymore because it is a waste of brain power. See more about what the CDC says here: https://www.cdc.gov/lyme/postlds/index.html
But this leaves me, like thousands of others, in limbo: do we continue to try things that might help lessen our suffering or do we accept where we are right now? These other optional treatments can break the bank and are certainly not covered by insurance, and in many cases, they work for a bit, but then we are back where we started. Now what?
Am I in a better place than I was 7 years ago? Heck yeah. And for that I am grateful. But I’m still dealing with fatigue, memory issues, word loss, joint pain, and insomnia. One doctor tells me that most likely, this will be as good as it gets. Another tells me to try alternative therapies that cost an arm and a leg and/or have not been researched enough. Which way do I turn?
I absolutely love my Integrative doctor, do not get me wrong. This doctor helped me out of a very dark place about 3 years ago, and I have made progress with this doctor. S/He definitely has a good heart and wants to help me. But the last treatment we tried – a nasal spray to be basic – costs a lot. Now, S/He encouraged me saying, ‘it really can be a game changer.’ I couldn’t pass something like that up! I did the pre-testing $200 (to make sure my body was ready for the treatment covered by insurance) – and I ordered the spray – one month supply $250 (not covered by insurance). And while for some this isn’t much money, for my family it is. When I ordered the first month supply, I wasn’t sure if I would be able to continue if needed another month at $250. I figured we could manage it somehow, especially if it were working!
I began the nasal spray – 4 times a day – around Thanksgiving. I stayed on schedule, making sure I didn’t miss a dose. I mean “game changer”, my people! But you probably already know the outcome – meh. Nothing seemed to change at all. When I asked the doctor through our patient portal is I should continue, the answer was yes, but only if I were seeing results. So.
To say I was disappointed that there were zero results is an understatement. But was dumb of me to put any stock into the possibility that this could be The Thing to help me progress in my ‘journey towards wellness.’ Then I had doubts about my own possible culpability. Was it something I did to somehow mess up the treatment? Did I miss a few doses somehow during the holidays? What did I do wrong?
All of this is just plain old exhausting, isn’t it? While I surely do not expect ‘a cure’ I would like to make a little progress from where I am now – about the same place I’ve been for a couple of years now. But maybe this is it. This is the best it will get. And if so, can I be OK with this?
I’m not sure, friends. I’m just not sure.
I’ve been less focused on writing lately. I can’t quite put my finger on it. Reflecting, I think it is because, well compared to say 2 years ago, I think my health is a bit improved. Honestly, it’s hard to say and hard to measure. But in my mind, and my husband agrees, I am doing better overall. And so, I find that this makes it more difficult to write than when I was much sicker. Weird, right?
I think this is due to my wondering: what can I write about as a semi-sick, semi-healed person that people would actually be interested in reading? If you have any ideas, please let me know!
While so many of my symptoms have all but disappeared, I am still trying to work on insomnia, joint and muscle pain, memory and concentration issues, and fatigue. Sometimes, these wax and wane, although the insomnia issue and the fatigue are cornerstones of this Lyme journey that continue to remind me that I am chronically ill. Oy.
One other issue I am struggling with is actually accepting the fact that I am chronically ill. It was much easier to embrace it and own it when I really felt so very terrible every single day. For years on end. Now that I have some relief, and there are times I can participate in life in ways that haven’t been options for me – again for years – it is much harder to keep in mind that I am in fact, still chronically ill.
My mind likes to play tricks on me, or maybe it is more my body that plays the tricks. An example would be this: I used to have terrible migraines. I had never dealt with anything like this before Lyme disease. The migraines started about 18 months into treatment. And they continued for about 12 months. A good one to 2 a month. Learning to deal with those was only one part of a puzzle I still do not think I have all of the pieces to. And then, they stopped. I haven’t had a migraine for quite awhile. So, one more symptom I don’t have to deal with and I think, hey, I’m ok. I think, I’m so much better off than so many others. I’m making progress. I can’t really say I am chronically ill because, well, I had migraines and now I don’t.
How can I be both better than my worst 3 years ago, or 6 years ago, and yet, still be chronically ill? This is something I am truly trying to figure out for myself. I don’t have an answer. I savor the minutes and sometimes hours I feel better, and I survive through the ones when I don’t.
I hope all of you are doing well and that Thanksgiving was good to you and to yours. Take care. – B